Comfortable silence

Sometimes we sat in silence

A time
When silence was ominous
Hinting at misgivings

Now we may sit in silence

Feeling at ease
The silence enhancing
Beating hearts 

Sometimes we sat in silence

A time
When silence felt uncomfortable
Filled with trivialities 

Now we may sit in silence

Feeling closer
The silence needing
Nothing louder than loving smiles

Sometimes we sat in silence

A time
When silence meant
One was not there

Now we may sit in silence

Speaking not to fill
The silence
But to touch what what we know is firm

You need to go it alone sometimes

Stop coming to me
You see
I cannot provide your worth
The troubles you give birth to
Are only unearthed due
To your need to feed on sterile seeds
Sown by lips tipped to hone their words
To be heard by you as uplifting
All while sifting for weakness in the bleakness 
You are looking to be rescued from

You cry at the breeze
To seize on passing guilt
Houses built around your cries
Burn in fires you lit just to sit in ashes
As gashes freshly burned
Earn more pity 
Than the gritty path to respect
Flecked with dignity

I care not
For your waning confidence 
When your reigning arrogance
Isolates and infuriates 
Dictating that I should hold your hand
On the path to grandeur
As a voyeur
Of the success you will discard
If times ever get hard for you

Look in the mirror
It has never been clearer 
Who should help pull you through
The stews you throw yourself into
I am tired
I once desired to assist
But now I desist
You missed the window for my assistance
And this distance
Will not grow shorter
Until you test the waters
Of inner wealth
Walk the road of health
And start helping yourself

I miss you

I miss you smiling
And I miss your laughter
I miss you beforehand
I miss you right after
I miss you while looking
Right into your eyes
I miss you with kisses
Blown into the sky

I want you beside me
I want time to hurry
I want to lay kisses 
On you in a flurry
Strengthening feeling
Makes me miss you more
Somehow I need what
I wanted before

I have always missed you
The longing is growing
I have always missed you
More so for knowing
The more that I know you
The more you are missed
I dread the departing
Once we have kissed

I miss you right now
These bitter-sweet meetings
In time I will hold you
Euphorically fleeting
I will go on missing you
Deal with the sting
As the missing it fades
Near the joy that you bring

I disappear

Out of sight, out of mind
Rings true
It will for you, too
If you remember me

But absence

Makes no hearts fonder
For me; you see
I fade in periphery
Image burned when heads turn

As home

Is where the heart is
If not there
Hearts do not care
For me; veins do not reach

And we deal with

The hurdle in front
So I wedge myself
On the ledge
Of your next step to stay in focus

Because water

Under the bridge
Is lost
Once crossed
And I want to stay up-steam 

A thorn

In the side annoys
But at least I am there
If I overbear
I look terrible in shadow

I disappear


 

Conversely seasonal

I fear the coming sun

I see it rising on your horizon
Lighting the land for you to see; but
You loom so large before me
I will fall into shadow

I fear the coming sun

I see it warming your surroundings
Drawing you to places once frigid; but
My heat falls tepid
Compared to nearby radiance

I fear the coming sun

I see it shine through windows
Enticing you toward newly-open doors; but
Meetings inside — previous products of necessity
Now a wasted frivolity 

I fear the coming sun

I see your world blossoming
Awakening to new adventures; but
My days shorten
And my routine remains

I fear the coming sun

I see you, in perfect light
I see you happy; but
Selfishly, I fear the coming sun
For what it means for me